Change

Written on 9/6/11

I had a huge revelation today.
I've changed a lot since middle school.
I've completely changed my clothing style. I actually wear jeans now- but in middle school, I wore jeans exactly once in all three years. I also wear skirts and tank tops with cardigans, which are also new additions in my wardrobe. Part of this is due to new dress code rules at school banning sweatpants and athletic wear, which basically was the extent of my "style" previously- simple and comfortable.
I've become more of a nerd. Happily. I enjoy being a nerd. I listen to Hank Green's music (as well as some other indie-style music), I love geeky TV shows like Bones, Buffy the Vampire Slayer (and Angel), and I also watch a countless number of Youtubers (such as the vlogbrothers, Charlie McDonnell, Karen Kavett … shall I go on?) as they spend their amazing lives staring and vlogging into video cameras.
I've continued farther on my path to becoming a writer through new writing ideas I've come up with.
As to more of a general standpoint (away from the specifics for a bit):
I've discovered more of my self identity. I feel like I know more about my place. Not necessarily my place in the world- I'm not that far yet, though I wish I knew that- but my place in society, especially at school.
I've decided that though I'm changing a lot about myself, I'm never going to stop being me.
Most importantly, though, I've decided to accept myself. I accept who I am and where I belong. I have best friends by my side to support me, I am relatively liked and accepted by most people in my grade, and I even got asked to Homecoming by a guy I like :).
But none of this matters, in the grand scheme of things. In terms of the world, I'm just a young human being. My troubles don't change anything. Nothing I worry about really matters to anyone except me. So I'll just live the rest of my life striving to be me. That young human being in a huge universe. And I hope that I'll be better for it.

-Cora

On My Mind

1. High school- it's new, it's exciting, and I'm doing well, even though I'm playing tennis and I'm taking the hardest classes offered to me. I've joined two clubs: Amnesty International and our school's newspaper. I'm thinking about joining Chess Club. I'm also continuing my position as a student ambassador, which means I get to tour new families around the school.
2. Tennis- I'm really enjoying playing it at school with my team as well as watching and obsessing over the U.S. Open.
3. Writing- I have several writing projects going on right now. I have a dystopian novel that I've been working on, and I've decided to revise Keep Running (last year's Nano novel) more. I've been researching tips on revising and rewriting.
4. Change- everything that's happened since middle school. More on that on another blog post coming soon. By the way, sorry I haven't been able to post frequently. :/ I'll try to be better at being more consistent.

-Cora