Who am I?

I am an inspired young writer.
I am a poet.
I am a thinker.
I am a dreamer.
I am a girl trying to positively change the world.
I am who I am.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Journal Entry from Olin: October 15, 2011

If I could go back in time and change anything about what happened today, I wouldn't change anything. We had a nice breakfast at our hotel this morning and then we went to Olin to check in. While my parents had an interview, I sat outside at the Oval and relaxed and read a bit. It was a wonderful feeling, just sitting peacefully on the bench, watching Oliners ride around on their self-built recumbent bikes. What's so awesome about Olin is all of the diverse, nerdy people who are just like family. Family who share common interests, a common motivation, and, most importantly, a common drive to do well and succeed. I love it here.

Dad and Mom came after a while and we met up with Julian, who got his laptop and showed us his latest project. This was some amazing stuff- breadboards hooked up to his laptop, connected by an array of wires in all the right places. It all fit together to make a cool racecar game in which two players each controlled a spinning arrow and a button which would allow the cars to race each other to the finish. It was all beautiful in a way that's hard to explain- it all fit together so well, so perfectly, with all these intricate pieces coming together as a whole, like a butterfly, its wings decked with separate, unique scales, but all coming together in a gorgeous pattern.

We headed to lunch; first, we checked out a restaurant we've been to before, but it was closed, so we went to Petit Robert Bistro instead. It's a quaint, little, French-American restaurant with great food; I had a yummy French baguette sandwich with Jambon ham served with some slices of tomato and some French fries. Good stuff :)!

Later, the four of us went to Wellesley because it was one of the colleges I liked most from what I read in a college book. It was pretty old and it had a nice setting, but it was a lot bigger than I had expected, so it was hard to find our way around the place. It was also kind of imposing, not really the welcoming environment I had been hoping for.

After an hour or so of walking around the campus in a circle, we went to a small coffee shop nearby and sat down outside. An old man who was sitting on the bench next to us kept on talking about the ambulances and police cars that were driving by.

My dad got me some hot chocolate and a chocolate croissant. We sat there drinking and eating and talking, mostly about the classes Julian's taking. He told us that he is taking 24 credits worth of classes, though the maximum is 21, and two more classes that he won't get credit for at all. As he said, "I don't take classes for grades."

Later on, Dad drove us to the movie theater, where we watched a pretty good movie called "The Ides of March." The plot was really interesting, and the movie was quite dramatic at times. :)

We ate dinner at Solea's, a really wonderful restaurant with tapas, little dishes that we shared as a group. I had some delicious calamari, French fries, and some baby lamb chops. We went there last year for Family Weekend, too, so since we all liked it so much, Dad and I decided to make it a tradition. :)

In the car ride back to Olin, I had a really enthralling and inspiring conversation with Jules about nerdiness and college. I asked him where he learned all of the things he showed me today, and he said that most of it was at Olin. According to him, there's almost no time when you need to know something about engineering and no one knows the answer. That, I think, is amazing.

I told Julian that I do extra work all the time, and that everyone calls me an overachiever, but I'm proud. Julian replied, "There's no such thing as an overachiever- just someone who does what he should do." Then, as an afterthought, he said, "You can quote me on that." I smiled. "I probably will." And so I did. :)

With that note, he left and we told him that we'd see him in the morning.

And now, as I lay here in my bed at our hotel, I feel inspired. I feel nerdy. I feel awesome.

DFTBA (Don't Forget To Be Awesome),
Cora

Blowing my Mind (written on October 10)

Science class impacted my day quite a bit today. We were talking about the flow of energy and how energy is passed from consumer to consumer, organism to organism. With each transferral of energy, a bit of that energy is lost as heat energy and is unusable for organisms to do work: but that's natural and normal. It's called the Second Law of Thermodynamics. As this heat energy is released, the order of the universe is reducing and the world is slowly moving towards chaos and entropy. Literally. Complete disorder. Just because of energy loss.

This kind of blew my mind. I had this huge connection to the whole world. Everything is SO interwoven and connected, and life is such a huge whole of which we are such a small part. But if we are so insignificant, why should we care? Why do we do what we do every day? What's the point, if we'll all eventually succumb to the disorder of the universe? Most likely, no one will be there to remember us, or anything that we did. It is quite possible that everything that happened on this Earth will vanish into oblivion. No one will ever know, care, or even wonder what could have happened. What we perceive as so much is in reality so little.

That, of course, brings up the questions, "Why do people live if (chances are) nothing we do will change anything in the grand scheme of things?" and "What is the point of human existence?"

I'll leave on that note. Just mull over it. Gaah. Still blowing my mind.

-Cora

Steve Jobs (written on October 6)

Today, I re-watched a speech by Steve Jobs that he made during the 2005 commencement ceremony at Stanford University. It is an absolutely brilliant speech. It's only fifteen minutes long, but what he said was extremely inspiring. Here's a quote from the speech that particularly impacted me:

"When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.
Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart." (http://news.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505.html)

Wow. It takes a little for the weight and the power of those words to settle in. If I were to die tomorrow, what would I do today? It's a really thought-provoking question. It really makes you think about what you want to do in life and what you value. It's also a difficult question for me to answer, because I really don't know much about what I want to do in life. I only know that I want to be happy. I want to love the world. I want to share something with the world. I want to make a difference, because I feel like that would make my life successful.

On that note, I'll conclude this journal entry. I realize that it isn't very long, but it has a lot of abstract concepts that I need to think about. I need to live a worthwhile left- it seems like it's some sort of unsaid duty I have to fulfill. Something else to think about.

Thank you, Steve Jobs, for posing questions that will riddle my mind for the rest of my life. Thank you for inspiring me and so many others to do great things. You will be remembered.

-Cora